OOPS I forgot to say something about my 24th Birthday last month..
Well I had FOUR celebrations
the first one was celebrated a week before my birthday with my relative in line with the Pacquiao fight. I honestly didn't feel that it was my birthday coz' everyone's focus was on Pacquiao. I appreciate the gifts tho~ tees, tees, tees... oh look... another tee =) I thought it was funny that everyone got me a shirt.
my second one was my annual volleyball/dinner with Ben, Deanna, and my tandem X crew.
Everything seemed perfect, Stan gave me a ride to Harry Jerome where everyone's waiting to play. Derek, Denny and Ricky was there already and Deanna came after a few minutes. I was looking for Ben but I thought he's just running late so we started playing already. @8 something I checked my phone just to find out that Ben (whom I expecting the most) wont be able to go anymore coz' HE SAID he's sick which no one believed of course. I'm a little sure that he had some issues with his gf but whatever, I maybe wrong? I was just frustrated coz It felt unfair. That I'm always there everytime he wanted to talk about stuff concerning his life, and I didn't miss his birthday too. BOO him!! Up to now, I'm still upset.. so upset that I even tried to catch up on him which never happened coz hes a busy guy and when he planned to do something, he cancelled on me. =( oh well.. what can I do but to just be happy for him coz at least hes doing something and he's happy unlike me who has no life this month LOL. After volleyball we went to red robin for food where deanna brought her friends too, some I didnt even know who they were but they were there to celebrate my birthday too but mainly to eat I guess.. It felt really incomplete coz Ben wasn't there =( thanks to Deanna, Denny, Derek and Ricky... and Jufar..that day was fun in general =) and it was snowing like crazy too =)
My third celebration was with my VGVA friends... I expected a few close friends but four of those didnt make it (Cliff, Ced & Chris, and Ellery which had a valid reason.. he will go on my 4th celebration anyway so it was fine) Cliff missed my birthday coz he had a hockey game to watch but he gave me a pretty card that morning, Ced & Chris cancelled coz Ced wasn't feeling well (which i didn't wanna buy) and Elle has a valid personal reason that I know. Guess who came?
Sanjay of course =) he gave me a Card too =) then those who I only see on some sundays when I play @ VGVA- Pat N. and his bf Daniel, David, Bren, Colin, Patrick A. and the couple which I rarely see at all- Dylan and Megumi. Thanks to them my birthday dinner was still a Success, tho I was sad that Cliff Ced and Christian didn't make it.
My Fourth Birthday was a Potluck with my classmates and some ol' friends (Neil, Vladz, and Rafael). Elle came =) and Patrick A. was there again =) he's a sweet guy =) It was @ Cyrille's pad- one of my closest friend in school together with Roma, Fra, and Arianne. Sledge, Ate Maria, Cocoy and his bro, Cyrille's bro and bf was there too =) 3 of my classmates cancelled coz the other one was rushed in the hospital coz of high blood pressure, the other one couldnt go coz of an unbelievable reason that annoyed me I couldn't even write it here. and I didn't hear anything from Joyce that night but It was fine coz everyone was full coz there were tons of food =) the next morning @ school, Joyce said sorry and gave me a LOVELY coffee mug from starbucks. Edison didn't talk talk to me coz he's shy and he felt bad that he didn't make it.
In General, I had a blast =) im now 24 y.o.
still single =)
Sunday, December 19, 2010
December 19, 2010 12:24 a.m.
6 days from now and it'll be my 3rd Christmas here in Canada, fun as it may sound but in reality it's not since I haven't accepted the fact that this is my new home. Maybe because this is not home? I've ranted about this in my previous posts some time ago and it still haunts me =( It's so easy to say to just go back to the Philippines but it's not that easy. I'm being selfless right now, as much as I want to become happy, I'm here to be a Nurse and help my Family who lives here with me. I have nothing to expect from my 18 yo brother since he's following a wrong direction in Life (getting F's in school to start and a bad attitude on top of that) and I don't want my parent's hardships for us to go to where he's going now. My two other siblings are still young and they still yet to become successful here.
What used to be my dream back in the Philippines? To be able to see and have fun with my FRIENDS anytime I want (which I could have done), To be a Registered Nurse (which I did), have someone special in my life (which I had), work full-time while slowly getting my Master's Degree, Become a Clinical Instructor, help my Family (If they would need my help like if they've stayed in the Philippines, or take care of my favorite Auntie as she's single and no one lives with her now that both of my grandparents are dead), buy a car, save for my dream house, invest in a food business, and live happily ever after....
But now that I'm here... honestly... all I wish is to meet someone who can share his life with me... that would make everything perfect since it'll be easy to get what I want and help whoever I want when I become a Nurse... I've met TONS of friends here already, I just haven't formed a close bond with anyone yet... reasons that I couldn't write in here (booooo) =)
I couldn't sleep at night lately because I always cry and think how happy my life could have been if I stayed in the Philippines. but I always ends up sucking it up because there's nothing else that I can do now but be patient, because the right time will come for everything.
This Christmas, I wish safety and good health for me, my family, and friends and loved ones. I would like to pray for my 18 yo brother, may he find the light that will guide him on the right path. I wish for peace of mind for myself to keep me focused and successful on my endeavors.
=)
***
School Update:
I got an A in one of my courses =) one more to go =) and the Hospital Clinician where I did my internship this semester really really liked me and she wanted me back probably for Preceptorship and for a Full time job when I get my RN =)
What used to be my dream back in the Philippines? To be able to see and have fun with my FRIENDS anytime I want (which I could have done), To be a Registered Nurse (which I did), have someone special in my life (which I had), work full-time while slowly getting my Master's Degree, Become a Clinical Instructor, help my Family (If they would need my help like if they've stayed in the Philippines, or take care of my favorite Auntie as she's single and no one lives with her now that both of my grandparents are dead), buy a car, save for my dream house, invest in a food business, and live happily ever after....
But now that I'm here... honestly... all I wish is to meet someone who can share his life with me... that would make everything perfect since it'll be easy to get what I want and help whoever I want when I become a Nurse... I've met TONS of friends here already, I just haven't formed a close bond with anyone yet... reasons that I couldn't write in here (booooo) =)
I couldn't sleep at night lately because I always cry and think how happy my life could have been if I stayed in the Philippines. but I always ends up sucking it up because there's nothing else that I can do now but be patient, because the right time will come for everything.
This Christmas, I wish safety and good health for me, my family, and friends and loved ones. I would like to pray for my 18 yo brother, may he find the light that will guide him on the right path. I wish for peace of mind for myself to keep me focused and successful on my endeavors.
=)
***
School Update:
I got an A in one of my courses =) one more to go =) and the Hospital Clinician where I did my internship this semester really really liked me and she wanted me back probably for Preceptorship and for a Full time job when I get my RN =)
Sunday, October 24, 2010
October 24, 2010 0042
YAY!!!! I passed the Canadian Practical Nurse Registration Exams :) Im one step closer to being an RN!!! and Im really doing good @ school...
LPN NA KO!!
LPN NA KO!!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
August 28, 2010 1:30 am
Wow.... its been almost a year since I wrote something here hahahaha
well... Im back... how are you my diary?? LOL
lotsa things happened.... i dont wanna write down all the details coz itll take me forever to type it here so ill just summarize what happened in the past months....
>I decided to stay away from Neil and my old friends
>I joined the Vancouver Gay Volleyball Association (VGVA) met more friends thanks to..
Ellery and the couple Cedric, and Christian
>I joined the North American Gay Volleyball Association (NAGVA) and was able to travel to the states, won tournaments, and met tons of good friends :) thanks to the power couple CC and...
Chanelle.. I met William and Dexter.. and my PNW Ohana :) lotsa names hahaha
>Im still working @ the callcenter.. although today (saturday) will be my last day because...
>Im going back to school for 10 months to qualify for the Registered Nurse Exams next year
>Im going to write the the Licensed Practical Nurse exams this September 15, hopefully ill pass so i can work part time as an LPN while studying
>I had a bf for 2 weeks LOL... it didnt work out.. and i really hated his immaturity... but i was kinda expecting it... I still like him but nah.... past is past :) my focus now is my studies :) even if i told him not to talk to me anymore, he still says hi and send me texts once in a while.. but i dont reply coz i dont wanna get distracted... career first!
and lots and lots of things.. these are the highlights tho :)
ANYWAY........
Ellery became my closest big sister here in canada.... met him in a recreation center long time ago but i really didnt had a chance to know him until I joined VGVA where he ofted showed up and i had a chance to know him more... and boom! instant connection... although we had some misunderstandings when we went to oregon for our gay nationals vball tourney which brought a gap between us, but were okay now.. starting to connect again.. i really miss him...
I need to catch up to the power couple cedric and christian too... its been a while since I hang with them.... Ill be seeing chanelle and the rest next week coz im gonna spend my labor day weekend in SEATTLE!!! oh yeah baby.... lake fun!!
Last month I talked to Neil and the others again to reconcile and it was going okay... and guess what happened... DRAMA!!! so im now convinced that I can never be around that group anymore... I had enough.. and I need to surround myself with drama free friends.. would you agree??? dont ask me about what DRAMA am i talking about coz it was just.. overrated...
anyway......
Today I played volleyball with some of my VGVA friends (I didnt join this year by the way.. coz of school... *wink wink), my friend/crush Ricky and Deanna... although she didnt really play with us coz she was late.. and she played with her friends... but its ok coz i played with ricky anyway... and friends.. :) Ben wasnt able to play coz Friday is his day to spend time with his girlfriend for 9 months now, Gianni. Oh.. Ricky has a gf too.. Eva... theyve been together for 9 months too... anyway towards the end of the night, we decided to do a match between the gays and the straight... 5 vs 5... and guess who won.. HELL YEAH!!! US!!!... It was a fun night... Ricky gave me a ride to the skytrain station but we grabbed drinks first.. and he payed for me coz i didnt have cash with me... hes sweet :)
On Tuesday Ben catched up with me coz we really havent had a chance to talk to each other lately coz after our league last year we barely play together... same goes with deanna.. its ricky whom I hated the most before that i play with now... anyway Ben and I did a lil bit of shopping, had dinner, then watched a movie.. even if it looks like a date.. it wasnt!! okay??? LOL
Im looking forward to catch up to deanna too... coz my connection to her and ben is more... connected? LMAO.... unlike ricky, coz its just a volleyball connection for him... and brotherly love.. whatever LOL....
I also formed a volleyball connection with new friends... Alex and now Stan.... Alex is the loner guy that i met in a rec center around our place and hes GOOD... stan was introduced to me by ricky or ben.. i cant rememeber... and hes getting better :) looks like well have a new team for the winter league..:)
Alex and Ricky is part of my NAGVA team now... theyre not gays!! but we play together coz its a good club.. good tournaments... and FUN! weve played and won a couple of tournaments together so our volleyball chemistry is pretty.. cool.. its okay... lol hopefully well play together this november again for the Vancouver leg of NAGVA....
Im not dating anyone at the moment.. although Im talking to some guys.. but just for friends coz I promised myself that I need to get my RN first... and as much as possible.. try not to be involved in any kind of relationship which may cause drama and distraction to my career in the making....
One of the guys that im talking to now is Ned, hes a nurse in the philippines who will move here in vancouver on october... hes really cute... and yeah hes my crush.. but thats it... im helping him to find a place where he can stay together with his friend when they get here.. and guiding him about the process of registration here to be a nurse... I think were gonna be good friends :) thats just about it.... i dunno if anything will happen like.. if itll be more than friends but anything could happen.... to anyone.. anywhere... anytime... i dont have any expectations or hopes tho.... just plain friendship... i just think hes cute... so yeah...
Im still talking to Anton, my ex in the philippines... he failed his licensure exam to be a nurse AGAIN in the Philippines... for the third time :( and hes really sad.. im just comforting him :) he still likes me.... but i dont wanna tie him up to me so I dont give him any false hopes.. although were in an open kind of like... a bond? not really a relationship.. but like.. a passive commitment.... weird but thats what we have now LOL
A lot of things really happened and this post looks like a mess.. so lets just skip those... starting tomorrow... its gonna be a fresh beggining :) or continuation..... whatever....
its perfect timing too... coz... its gonna be a new chapter of my life here in canada
Reconnected with Ben, Deanna, Ellery.. together with new vball friends....
Start of my life as a student....
The LPN exams...
and still single :)...
Im sleepy now... so ttyl!!!!
well... Im back... how are you my diary?? LOL
lotsa things happened.... i dont wanna write down all the details coz itll take me forever to type it here so ill just summarize what happened in the past months....
>I decided to stay away from Neil and my old friends
>I joined the Vancouver Gay Volleyball Association (VGVA) met more friends thanks to..
Ellery and the couple Cedric, and Christian
>I joined the North American Gay Volleyball Association (NAGVA) and was able to travel to the states, won tournaments, and met tons of good friends :) thanks to the power couple CC and...
Chanelle.. I met William and Dexter.. and my PNW Ohana :) lotsa names hahaha
>Im still working @ the callcenter.. although today (saturday) will be my last day because...
>Im going back to school for 10 months to qualify for the Registered Nurse Exams next year
>Im going to write the the Licensed Practical Nurse exams this September 15, hopefully ill pass so i can work part time as an LPN while studying
>I had a bf for 2 weeks LOL... it didnt work out.. and i really hated his immaturity... but i was kinda expecting it... I still like him but nah.... past is past :) my focus now is my studies :) even if i told him not to talk to me anymore, he still says hi and send me texts once in a while.. but i dont reply coz i dont wanna get distracted... career first!
and lots and lots of things.. these are the highlights tho :)
ANYWAY........
Ellery became my closest big sister here in canada.... met him in a recreation center long time ago but i really didnt had a chance to know him until I joined VGVA where he ofted showed up and i had a chance to know him more... and boom! instant connection... although we had some misunderstandings when we went to oregon for our gay nationals vball tourney which brought a gap between us, but were okay now.. starting to connect again.. i really miss him...
I need to catch up to the power couple cedric and christian too... its been a while since I hang with them.... Ill be seeing chanelle and the rest next week coz im gonna spend my labor day weekend in SEATTLE!!! oh yeah baby.... lake fun!!
Last month I talked to Neil and the others again to reconcile and it was going okay... and guess what happened... DRAMA!!! so im now convinced that I can never be around that group anymore... I had enough.. and I need to surround myself with drama free friends.. would you agree??? dont ask me about what DRAMA am i talking about coz it was just.. overrated...
anyway......
Today I played volleyball with some of my VGVA friends (I didnt join this year by the way.. coz of school... *wink wink), my friend/crush Ricky and Deanna... although she didnt really play with us coz she was late.. and she played with her friends... but its ok coz i played with ricky anyway... and friends.. :) Ben wasnt able to play coz Friday is his day to spend time with his girlfriend for 9 months now, Gianni. Oh.. Ricky has a gf too.. Eva... theyve been together for 9 months too... anyway towards the end of the night, we decided to do a match between the gays and the straight... 5 vs 5... and guess who won.. HELL YEAH!!! US!!!... It was a fun night... Ricky gave me a ride to the skytrain station but we grabbed drinks first.. and he payed for me coz i didnt have cash with me... hes sweet :)
On Tuesday Ben catched up with me coz we really havent had a chance to talk to each other lately coz after our league last year we barely play together... same goes with deanna.. its ricky whom I hated the most before that i play with now... anyway Ben and I did a lil bit of shopping, had dinner, then watched a movie.. even if it looks like a date.. it wasnt!! okay??? LOL
Im looking forward to catch up to deanna too... coz my connection to her and ben is more... connected? LMAO.... unlike ricky, coz its just a volleyball connection for him... and brotherly love.. whatever LOL....
I also formed a volleyball connection with new friends... Alex and now Stan.... Alex is the loner guy that i met in a rec center around our place and hes GOOD... stan was introduced to me by ricky or ben.. i cant rememeber... and hes getting better :) looks like well have a new team for the winter league..:)
Alex and Ricky is part of my NAGVA team now... theyre not gays!! but we play together coz its a good club.. good tournaments... and FUN! weve played and won a couple of tournaments together so our volleyball chemistry is pretty.. cool.. its okay... lol hopefully well play together this november again for the Vancouver leg of NAGVA....
Im not dating anyone at the moment.. although Im talking to some guys.. but just for friends coz I promised myself that I need to get my RN first... and as much as possible.. try not to be involved in any kind of relationship which may cause drama and distraction to my career in the making....
One of the guys that im talking to now is Ned, hes a nurse in the philippines who will move here in vancouver on october... hes really cute... and yeah hes my crush.. but thats it... im helping him to find a place where he can stay together with his friend when they get here.. and guiding him about the process of registration here to be a nurse... I think were gonna be good friends :) thats just about it.... i dunno if anything will happen like.. if itll be more than friends but anything could happen.... to anyone.. anywhere... anytime... i dont have any expectations or hopes tho.... just plain friendship... i just think hes cute... so yeah...
Im still talking to Anton, my ex in the philippines... he failed his licensure exam to be a nurse AGAIN in the Philippines... for the third time :( and hes really sad.. im just comforting him :) he still likes me.... but i dont wanna tie him up to me so I dont give him any false hopes.. although were in an open kind of like... a bond? not really a relationship.. but like.. a passive commitment.... weird but thats what we have now LOL
A lot of things really happened and this post looks like a mess.. so lets just skip those... starting tomorrow... its gonna be a fresh beggining :) or continuation..... whatever....
its perfect timing too... coz... its gonna be a new chapter of my life here in canada
Reconnected with Ben, Deanna, Ellery.. together with new vball friends....
Start of my life as a student....
The LPN exams...
and still single :)...
Im sleepy now... so ttyl!!!!
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