2nd day of school... didn't really have a good vacation since I had no money and the weather just sucks! Ugh!!! can't wait til march 18 to go back in SO-CAL just for a few days =)
2nd semester is pretty scary... tough looking professors and hell lots of work to do after class such as crazy homeworks and mind-draining case studies, not to mention the short paper that we have to submit on our Sociology course which has to be 5 pages long, at least =(
Nothing special happened these past few days... oh well.. I got my student loan and I paid my bills.. addicted to Yugi-oh duel accelerator (where I spent $40 on my first week of playing just to buy passes so I can get cool avatar items and cards, well if you know the game that I'm talking about).
This afternoon we I was planning to go out with my classmates but there was an event in school where we had free pizzas and free airbrushed tattoos!! =) then on our way home I dunno why I told one of my classmate my love story with Marco, again LOL maybe I'm just missing him. Oh well I sent him a text to see how he's doing since I haven't had a chance to go out with him everytime he asked me to, guess what! He called me couple of minutes ago =)
He asked me why I'm not returning his texts and calls and I told him that I was busy and i accidentally missed some of his textx (which I didn't LOL) I was just... avoiding him still maybe??? coz I dun wanna fall inlove with him again hahahaha, oh well I miss him =)
Tomorrow I'll be playing volleyball with my sistahs Christian and Cedric.. it's gonna be a good FRIDAY!!!!! =)
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Sunday, December 19, 2010
December 19, 2010 12:56 a.m.
OOPS I forgot to say something about my 24th Birthday last month..
Well I had FOUR celebrations
the first one was celebrated a week before my birthday with my relative in line with the Pacquiao fight. I honestly didn't feel that it was my birthday coz' everyone's focus was on Pacquiao. I appreciate the gifts tho~ tees, tees, tees... oh look... another tee =) I thought it was funny that everyone got me a shirt.
my second one was my annual volleyball/dinner with Ben, Deanna, and my tandem X crew.
Everything seemed perfect, Stan gave me a ride to Harry Jerome where everyone's waiting to play. Derek, Denny and Ricky was there already and Deanna came after a few minutes. I was looking for Ben but I thought he's just running late so we started playing already. @8 something I checked my phone just to find out that Ben (whom I expecting the most) wont be able to go anymore coz' HE SAID he's sick which no one believed of course. I'm a little sure that he had some issues with his gf but whatever, I maybe wrong? I was just frustrated coz It felt unfair. That I'm always there everytime he wanted to talk about stuff concerning his life, and I didn't miss his birthday too. BOO him!! Up to now, I'm still upset.. so upset that I even tried to catch up on him which never happened coz hes a busy guy and when he planned to do something, he cancelled on me. =( oh well.. what can I do but to just be happy for him coz at least hes doing something and he's happy unlike me who has no life this month LOL. After volleyball we went to red robin for food where deanna brought her friends too, some I didnt even know who they were but they were there to celebrate my birthday too but mainly to eat I guess.. It felt really incomplete coz Ben wasn't there =( thanks to Deanna, Denny, Derek and Ricky... and Jufar..that day was fun in general =) and it was snowing like crazy too =)
My third celebration was with my VGVA friends... I expected a few close friends but four of those didnt make it (Cliff, Ced & Chris, and Ellery which had a valid reason.. he will go on my 4th celebration anyway so it was fine) Cliff missed my birthday coz he had a hockey game to watch but he gave me a pretty card that morning, Ced & Chris cancelled coz Ced wasn't feeling well (which i didn't wanna buy) and Elle has a valid personal reason that I know. Guess who came?
Sanjay of course =) he gave me a Card too =) then those who I only see on some sundays when I play @ VGVA- Pat N. and his bf Daniel, David, Bren, Colin, Patrick A. and the couple which I rarely see at all- Dylan and Megumi. Thanks to them my birthday dinner was still a Success, tho I was sad that Cliff Ced and Christian didn't make it.
My Fourth Birthday was a Potluck with my classmates and some ol' friends (Neil, Vladz, and Rafael). Elle came =) and Patrick A. was there again =) he's a sweet guy =) It was @ Cyrille's pad- one of my closest friend in school together with Roma, Fra, and Arianne. Sledge, Ate Maria, Cocoy and his bro, Cyrille's bro and bf was there too =) 3 of my classmates cancelled coz the other one was rushed in the hospital coz of high blood pressure, the other one couldnt go coz of an unbelievable reason that annoyed me I couldn't even write it here. and I didn't hear anything from Joyce that night but It was fine coz everyone was full coz there were tons of food =) the next morning @ school, Joyce said sorry and gave me a LOVELY coffee mug from starbucks. Edison didn't talk talk to me coz he's shy and he felt bad that he didn't make it.
In General, I had a blast =) im now 24 y.o.
still single =)
Well I had FOUR celebrations
the first one was celebrated a week before my birthday with my relative in line with the Pacquiao fight. I honestly didn't feel that it was my birthday coz' everyone's focus was on Pacquiao. I appreciate the gifts tho~ tees, tees, tees... oh look... another tee =) I thought it was funny that everyone got me a shirt.
my second one was my annual volleyball/dinner with Ben, Deanna, and my tandem X crew.
Everything seemed perfect, Stan gave me a ride to Harry Jerome where everyone's waiting to play. Derek, Denny and Ricky was there already and Deanna came after a few minutes. I was looking for Ben but I thought he's just running late so we started playing already. @8 something I checked my phone just to find out that Ben (whom I expecting the most) wont be able to go anymore coz' HE SAID he's sick which no one believed of course. I'm a little sure that he had some issues with his gf but whatever, I maybe wrong? I was just frustrated coz It felt unfair. That I'm always there everytime he wanted to talk about stuff concerning his life, and I didn't miss his birthday too. BOO him!! Up to now, I'm still upset.. so upset that I even tried to catch up on him which never happened coz hes a busy guy and when he planned to do something, he cancelled on me. =( oh well.. what can I do but to just be happy for him coz at least hes doing something and he's happy unlike me who has no life this month LOL. After volleyball we went to red robin for food where deanna brought her friends too, some I didnt even know who they were but they were there to celebrate my birthday too but mainly to eat I guess.. It felt really incomplete coz Ben wasn't there =( thanks to Deanna, Denny, Derek and Ricky... and Jufar..that day was fun in general =) and it was snowing like crazy too =)
My third celebration was with my VGVA friends... I expected a few close friends but four of those didnt make it (Cliff, Ced & Chris, and Ellery which had a valid reason.. he will go on my 4th celebration anyway so it was fine) Cliff missed my birthday coz he had a hockey game to watch but he gave me a pretty card that morning, Ced & Chris cancelled coz Ced wasn't feeling well (which i didn't wanna buy) and Elle has a valid personal reason that I know. Guess who came?
Sanjay of course =) he gave me a Card too =) then those who I only see on some sundays when I play @ VGVA- Pat N. and his bf Daniel, David, Bren, Colin, Patrick A. and the couple which I rarely see at all- Dylan and Megumi. Thanks to them my birthday dinner was still a Success, tho I was sad that Cliff Ced and Christian didn't make it.
My Fourth Birthday was a Potluck with my classmates and some ol' friends (Neil, Vladz, and Rafael). Elle came =) and Patrick A. was there again =) he's a sweet guy =) It was @ Cyrille's pad- one of my closest friend in school together with Roma, Fra, and Arianne. Sledge, Ate Maria, Cocoy and his bro, Cyrille's bro and bf was there too =) 3 of my classmates cancelled coz the other one was rushed in the hospital coz of high blood pressure, the other one couldnt go coz of an unbelievable reason that annoyed me I couldn't even write it here. and I didn't hear anything from Joyce that night but It was fine coz everyone was full coz there were tons of food =) the next morning @ school, Joyce said sorry and gave me a LOVELY coffee mug from starbucks. Edison didn't talk talk to me coz he's shy and he felt bad that he didn't make it.
In General, I had a blast =) im now 24 y.o.
still single =)
December 19, 2010 12:24 a.m.
6 days from now and it'll be my 3rd Christmas here in Canada, fun as it may sound but in reality it's not since I haven't accepted the fact that this is my new home. Maybe because this is not home? I've ranted about this in my previous posts some time ago and it still haunts me =( It's so easy to say to just go back to the Philippines but it's not that easy. I'm being selfless right now, as much as I want to become happy, I'm here to be a Nurse and help my Family who lives here with me. I have nothing to expect from my 18 yo brother since he's following a wrong direction in Life (getting F's in school to start and a bad attitude on top of that) and I don't want my parent's hardships for us to go to where he's going now. My two other siblings are still young and they still yet to become successful here.
What used to be my dream back in the Philippines? To be able to see and have fun with my FRIENDS anytime I want (which I could have done), To be a Registered Nurse (which I did), have someone special in my life (which I had), work full-time while slowly getting my Master's Degree, Become a Clinical Instructor, help my Family (If they would need my help like if they've stayed in the Philippines, or take care of my favorite Auntie as she's single and no one lives with her now that both of my grandparents are dead), buy a car, save for my dream house, invest in a food business, and live happily ever after....
But now that I'm here... honestly... all I wish is to meet someone who can share his life with me... that would make everything perfect since it'll be easy to get what I want and help whoever I want when I become a Nurse... I've met TONS of friends here already, I just haven't formed a close bond with anyone yet... reasons that I couldn't write in here (booooo) =)
I couldn't sleep at night lately because I always cry and think how happy my life could have been if I stayed in the Philippines. but I always ends up sucking it up because there's nothing else that I can do now but be patient, because the right time will come for everything.
This Christmas, I wish safety and good health for me, my family, and friends and loved ones. I would like to pray for my 18 yo brother, may he find the light that will guide him on the right path. I wish for peace of mind for myself to keep me focused and successful on my endeavors.
=)
***
School Update:
I got an A in one of my courses =) one more to go =) and the Hospital Clinician where I did my internship this semester really really liked me and she wanted me back probably for Preceptorship and for a Full time job when I get my RN =)
What used to be my dream back in the Philippines? To be able to see and have fun with my FRIENDS anytime I want (which I could have done), To be a Registered Nurse (which I did), have someone special in my life (which I had), work full-time while slowly getting my Master's Degree, Become a Clinical Instructor, help my Family (If they would need my help like if they've stayed in the Philippines, or take care of my favorite Auntie as she's single and no one lives with her now that both of my grandparents are dead), buy a car, save for my dream house, invest in a food business, and live happily ever after....
But now that I'm here... honestly... all I wish is to meet someone who can share his life with me... that would make everything perfect since it'll be easy to get what I want and help whoever I want when I become a Nurse... I've met TONS of friends here already, I just haven't formed a close bond with anyone yet... reasons that I couldn't write in here (booooo) =)
I couldn't sleep at night lately because I always cry and think how happy my life could have been if I stayed in the Philippines. but I always ends up sucking it up because there's nothing else that I can do now but be patient, because the right time will come for everything.
This Christmas, I wish safety and good health for me, my family, and friends and loved ones. I would like to pray for my 18 yo brother, may he find the light that will guide him on the right path. I wish for peace of mind for myself to keep me focused and successful on my endeavors.
=)
***
School Update:
I got an A in one of my courses =) one more to go =) and the Hospital Clinician where I did my internship this semester really really liked me and she wanted me back probably for Preceptorship and for a Full time job when I get my RN =)
Sunday, October 24, 2010
October 24, 2010 0042
YAY!!!! I passed the Canadian Practical Nurse Registration Exams :) Im one step closer to being an RN!!! and Im really doing good @ school...
LPN NA KO!!
LPN NA KO!!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
August 28, 2010 1:30 am
Wow.... its been almost a year since I wrote something here hahahaha
well... Im back... how are you my diary?? LOL
lotsa things happened.... i dont wanna write down all the details coz itll take me forever to type it here so ill just summarize what happened in the past months....
>I decided to stay away from Neil and my old friends
>I joined the Vancouver Gay Volleyball Association (VGVA) met more friends thanks to..
Ellery and the couple Cedric, and Christian
>I joined the North American Gay Volleyball Association (NAGVA) and was able to travel to the states, won tournaments, and met tons of good friends :) thanks to the power couple CC and...
Chanelle.. I met William and Dexter.. and my PNW Ohana :) lotsa names hahaha
>Im still working @ the callcenter.. although today (saturday) will be my last day because...
>Im going back to school for 10 months to qualify for the Registered Nurse Exams next year
>Im going to write the the Licensed Practical Nurse exams this September 15, hopefully ill pass so i can work part time as an LPN while studying
>I had a bf for 2 weeks LOL... it didnt work out.. and i really hated his immaturity... but i was kinda expecting it... I still like him but nah.... past is past :) my focus now is my studies :) even if i told him not to talk to me anymore, he still says hi and send me texts once in a while.. but i dont reply coz i dont wanna get distracted... career first!
and lots and lots of things.. these are the highlights tho :)
ANYWAY........
Ellery became my closest big sister here in canada.... met him in a recreation center long time ago but i really didnt had a chance to know him until I joined VGVA where he ofted showed up and i had a chance to know him more... and boom! instant connection... although we had some misunderstandings when we went to oregon for our gay nationals vball tourney which brought a gap between us, but were okay now.. starting to connect again.. i really miss him...
I need to catch up to the power couple cedric and christian too... its been a while since I hang with them.... Ill be seeing chanelle and the rest next week coz im gonna spend my labor day weekend in SEATTLE!!! oh yeah baby.... lake fun!!
Last month I talked to Neil and the others again to reconcile and it was going okay... and guess what happened... DRAMA!!! so im now convinced that I can never be around that group anymore... I had enough.. and I need to surround myself with drama free friends.. would you agree??? dont ask me about what DRAMA am i talking about coz it was just.. overrated...
anyway......
Today I played volleyball with some of my VGVA friends (I didnt join this year by the way.. coz of school... *wink wink), my friend/crush Ricky and Deanna... although she didnt really play with us coz she was late.. and she played with her friends... but its ok coz i played with ricky anyway... and friends.. :) Ben wasnt able to play coz Friday is his day to spend time with his girlfriend for 9 months now, Gianni. Oh.. Ricky has a gf too.. Eva... theyve been together for 9 months too... anyway towards the end of the night, we decided to do a match between the gays and the straight... 5 vs 5... and guess who won.. HELL YEAH!!! US!!!... It was a fun night... Ricky gave me a ride to the skytrain station but we grabbed drinks first.. and he payed for me coz i didnt have cash with me... hes sweet :)
On Tuesday Ben catched up with me coz we really havent had a chance to talk to each other lately coz after our league last year we barely play together... same goes with deanna.. its ricky whom I hated the most before that i play with now... anyway Ben and I did a lil bit of shopping, had dinner, then watched a movie.. even if it looks like a date.. it wasnt!! okay??? LOL
Im looking forward to catch up to deanna too... coz my connection to her and ben is more... connected? LMAO.... unlike ricky, coz its just a volleyball connection for him... and brotherly love.. whatever LOL....
I also formed a volleyball connection with new friends... Alex and now Stan.... Alex is the loner guy that i met in a rec center around our place and hes GOOD... stan was introduced to me by ricky or ben.. i cant rememeber... and hes getting better :) looks like well have a new team for the winter league..:)
Alex and Ricky is part of my NAGVA team now... theyre not gays!! but we play together coz its a good club.. good tournaments... and FUN! weve played and won a couple of tournaments together so our volleyball chemistry is pretty.. cool.. its okay... lol hopefully well play together this november again for the Vancouver leg of NAGVA....
Im not dating anyone at the moment.. although Im talking to some guys.. but just for friends coz I promised myself that I need to get my RN first... and as much as possible.. try not to be involved in any kind of relationship which may cause drama and distraction to my career in the making....
One of the guys that im talking to now is Ned, hes a nurse in the philippines who will move here in vancouver on october... hes really cute... and yeah hes my crush.. but thats it... im helping him to find a place where he can stay together with his friend when they get here.. and guiding him about the process of registration here to be a nurse... I think were gonna be good friends :) thats just about it.... i dunno if anything will happen like.. if itll be more than friends but anything could happen.... to anyone.. anywhere... anytime... i dont have any expectations or hopes tho.... just plain friendship... i just think hes cute... so yeah...
Im still talking to Anton, my ex in the philippines... he failed his licensure exam to be a nurse AGAIN in the Philippines... for the third time :( and hes really sad.. im just comforting him :) he still likes me.... but i dont wanna tie him up to me so I dont give him any false hopes.. although were in an open kind of like... a bond? not really a relationship.. but like.. a passive commitment.... weird but thats what we have now LOL
A lot of things really happened and this post looks like a mess.. so lets just skip those... starting tomorrow... its gonna be a fresh beggining :) or continuation..... whatever....
its perfect timing too... coz... its gonna be a new chapter of my life here in canada
Reconnected with Ben, Deanna, Ellery.. together with new vball friends....
Start of my life as a student....
The LPN exams...
and still single :)...
Im sleepy now... so ttyl!!!!
well... Im back... how are you my diary?? LOL
lotsa things happened.... i dont wanna write down all the details coz itll take me forever to type it here so ill just summarize what happened in the past months....
>I decided to stay away from Neil and my old friends
>I joined the Vancouver Gay Volleyball Association (VGVA) met more friends thanks to..
Ellery and the couple Cedric, and Christian
>I joined the North American Gay Volleyball Association (NAGVA) and was able to travel to the states, won tournaments, and met tons of good friends :) thanks to the power couple CC and...
Chanelle.. I met William and Dexter.. and my PNW Ohana :) lotsa names hahaha
>Im still working @ the callcenter.. although today (saturday) will be my last day because...
>Im going back to school for 10 months to qualify for the Registered Nurse Exams next year
>Im going to write the the Licensed Practical Nurse exams this September 15, hopefully ill pass so i can work part time as an LPN while studying
>I had a bf for 2 weeks LOL... it didnt work out.. and i really hated his immaturity... but i was kinda expecting it... I still like him but nah.... past is past :) my focus now is my studies :) even if i told him not to talk to me anymore, he still says hi and send me texts once in a while.. but i dont reply coz i dont wanna get distracted... career first!
and lots and lots of things.. these are the highlights tho :)
ANYWAY........
Ellery became my closest big sister here in canada.... met him in a recreation center long time ago but i really didnt had a chance to know him until I joined VGVA where he ofted showed up and i had a chance to know him more... and boom! instant connection... although we had some misunderstandings when we went to oregon for our gay nationals vball tourney which brought a gap between us, but were okay now.. starting to connect again.. i really miss him...
I need to catch up to the power couple cedric and christian too... its been a while since I hang with them.... Ill be seeing chanelle and the rest next week coz im gonna spend my labor day weekend in SEATTLE!!! oh yeah baby.... lake fun!!
Last month I talked to Neil and the others again to reconcile and it was going okay... and guess what happened... DRAMA!!! so im now convinced that I can never be around that group anymore... I had enough.. and I need to surround myself with drama free friends.. would you agree??? dont ask me about what DRAMA am i talking about coz it was just.. overrated...
anyway......
Today I played volleyball with some of my VGVA friends (I didnt join this year by the way.. coz of school... *wink wink), my friend/crush Ricky and Deanna... although she didnt really play with us coz she was late.. and she played with her friends... but its ok coz i played with ricky anyway... and friends.. :) Ben wasnt able to play coz Friday is his day to spend time with his girlfriend for 9 months now, Gianni. Oh.. Ricky has a gf too.. Eva... theyve been together for 9 months too... anyway towards the end of the night, we decided to do a match between the gays and the straight... 5 vs 5... and guess who won.. HELL YEAH!!! US!!!... It was a fun night... Ricky gave me a ride to the skytrain station but we grabbed drinks first.. and he payed for me coz i didnt have cash with me... hes sweet :)
On Tuesday Ben catched up with me coz we really havent had a chance to talk to each other lately coz after our league last year we barely play together... same goes with deanna.. its ricky whom I hated the most before that i play with now... anyway Ben and I did a lil bit of shopping, had dinner, then watched a movie.. even if it looks like a date.. it wasnt!! okay??? LOL
Im looking forward to catch up to deanna too... coz my connection to her and ben is more... connected? LMAO.... unlike ricky, coz its just a volleyball connection for him... and brotherly love.. whatever LOL....
I also formed a volleyball connection with new friends... Alex and now Stan.... Alex is the loner guy that i met in a rec center around our place and hes GOOD... stan was introduced to me by ricky or ben.. i cant rememeber... and hes getting better :) looks like well have a new team for the winter league..:)
Alex and Ricky is part of my NAGVA team now... theyre not gays!! but we play together coz its a good club.. good tournaments... and FUN! weve played and won a couple of tournaments together so our volleyball chemistry is pretty.. cool.. its okay... lol hopefully well play together this november again for the Vancouver leg of NAGVA....
Im not dating anyone at the moment.. although Im talking to some guys.. but just for friends coz I promised myself that I need to get my RN first... and as much as possible.. try not to be involved in any kind of relationship which may cause drama and distraction to my career in the making....
One of the guys that im talking to now is Ned, hes a nurse in the philippines who will move here in vancouver on october... hes really cute... and yeah hes my crush.. but thats it... im helping him to find a place where he can stay together with his friend when they get here.. and guiding him about the process of registration here to be a nurse... I think were gonna be good friends :) thats just about it.... i dunno if anything will happen like.. if itll be more than friends but anything could happen.... to anyone.. anywhere... anytime... i dont have any expectations or hopes tho.... just plain friendship... i just think hes cute... so yeah...
Im still talking to Anton, my ex in the philippines... he failed his licensure exam to be a nurse AGAIN in the Philippines... for the third time :( and hes really sad.. im just comforting him :) he still likes me.... but i dont wanna tie him up to me so I dont give him any false hopes.. although were in an open kind of like... a bond? not really a relationship.. but like.. a passive commitment.... weird but thats what we have now LOL
A lot of things really happened and this post looks like a mess.. so lets just skip those... starting tomorrow... its gonna be a fresh beggining :) or continuation..... whatever....
its perfect timing too... coz... its gonna be a new chapter of my life here in canada
Reconnected with Ben, Deanna, Ellery.. together with new vball friends....
Start of my life as a student....
The LPN exams...
and still single :)...
Im sleepy now... so ttyl!!!!
Saturday, September 19, 2009
September 19, 2009 4:32 a.m.
Friday is over.....
I was so tired @ work coz' I only had 4 hours of sleep plus the fact that I played volleyball the night before. The day went fast, I think I had enough naps LOL it's payday too! I was planning to play volleyball after work but I felt so tired that I took a nap as soon as I got home then woke up around 9:30 p.m.- it was a 5 hour nap. Then I had dinner... Deanna texted me asking if I wanna go out tonight and I said yes of course coz' I dont wanna have another boring saturday... Ben texted me too asking what I was doing.. I think he's not mad anymore but I'm not convinced coz' he didnt reply to my text. I think he only texted me coz' Deanna told him to LOL but it's alright... not a biggy... we'll be ok LOL
I've been watching youtube videos about comedy bars in the Philippines since 11 pm and its 4:30 now haha.... almost forgot to blog.
I am so worried about my shoulder coz' everytime I wake up, its always painful and it "CLICKS"... so bad you'd thought it'll pop out. I hope this won't ruin my vball season. Tommorow will be the start of my gay league :P I'll be playing in the highest level and I'm gonna meet my teammates tommorow! M soooo excited.....
aight... I think I need to sleep now coz the technician who will check our internet connection will be here in a few hours... And I dont want him to see me half-naked, sleeping in my bed.. well I wanted to if my parents wont be here.. LOL I wish He's HOT!
cyall..
I was so tired @ work coz' I only had 4 hours of sleep plus the fact that I played volleyball the night before. The day went fast, I think I had enough naps LOL it's payday too! I was planning to play volleyball after work but I felt so tired that I took a nap as soon as I got home then woke up around 9:30 p.m.- it was a 5 hour nap. Then I had dinner... Deanna texted me asking if I wanna go out tonight and I said yes of course coz' I dont wanna have another boring saturday... Ben texted me too asking what I was doing.. I think he's not mad anymore but I'm not convinced coz' he didnt reply to my text. I think he only texted me coz' Deanna told him to LOL but it's alright... not a biggy... we'll be ok LOL
I've been watching youtube videos about comedy bars in the Philippines since 11 pm and its 4:30 now haha.... almost forgot to blog.
I am so worried about my shoulder coz' everytime I wake up, its always painful and it "CLICKS"... so bad you'd thought it'll pop out. I hope this won't ruin my vball season. Tommorow will be the start of my gay league :P I'll be playing in the highest level and I'm gonna meet my teammates tommorow! M soooo excited.....
aight... I think I need to sleep now coz the technician who will check our internet connection will be here in a few hours... And I dont want him to see me half-naked, sleeping in my bed.. well I wanted to if my parents wont be here.. LOL I wish He's HOT!
cyall..
Friday, September 18, 2009
September 18, 2009 1:37 a.m.
I just got home from our THURSDAY LEAGUE!!
and I'll make this blog short and simple...
Boring day @ work
Awesome LEAGUE!! we had 2 games... we won BOTH!!!!! were 2-0 now..
Had Dinner with BEN and my crush and teammate RICKY
Ricky and I teased Ben
Ben got Mad
He hates me....
I feel Bad....
I wanna say sorry... I don't think hell take it now...
so I'll give him time...
BEN LOOKS CUTE WHEN HES MAD btw :P
Now Im home.... tired.... happy.... but sad.... coz of Ben and Ricky haha
Im gonna sleep now.. have work in 5 hours.... T_T
I might not drop-in to vancouver tommorow to play... I think I'll be so tired...
but we'll see.....
NIGHT!
and I'll make this blog short and simple...
Boring day @ work
Awesome LEAGUE!! we had 2 games... we won BOTH!!!!! were 2-0 now..
Had Dinner with BEN and my crush and teammate RICKY
Ricky and I teased Ben
Ben got Mad
He hates me....
I feel Bad....
I wanna say sorry... I don't think hell take it now...
so I'll give him time...
BEN LOOKS CUTE WHEN HES MAD btw :P
Now Im home.... tired.... happy.... but sad.... coz of Ben and Ricky haha
Im gonna sleep now.. have work in 5 hours.... T_T
I might not drop-in to vancouver tommorow to play... I think I'll be so tired...
but we'll see.....
NIGHT!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
September 17, 2009 12:21 a.m.
I had a weird dream last night. Dreamt about my higschool classmates T_T we went to Mcdonald's then I woke up after.. I miss the old' times. It was funny coz last night I went to Mcdonalds with Ben too... Anyway... I wasnt late for work, but for some reason i felt tired all day. I was taking naps once in a while, glad nobody caught me... specially my supervisor.
While I was working (and taking naps), I thought about my friends in the Philippines and made me cry.. I had to run to the washroom LOL. I miss them so much... wish I can just stay with them forever. It's just sad coz I think Canada is my new home now, coz' of this effin' sense of responsibility.
I went home immediately after work coz' I was hungry... then head straight to the gym after dinner to play volleyball and practice my sets. Today (thurs) is the start of our league and IM SOOO EXCITED!!
Nothing special happened to day... just lotsa reminiscing... and few tears...
Need to relax... clear my thoughts... today is our big day....
While I was working (and taking naps), I thought about my friends in the Philippines and made me cry.. I had to run to the washroom LOL. I miss them so much... wish I can just stay with them forever. It's just sad coz I think Canada is my new home now, coz' of this effin' sense of responsibility.
I went home immediately after work coz' I was hungry... then head straight to the gym after dinner to play volleyball and practice my sets. Today (thurs) is the start of our league and IM SOOO EXCITED!!
Nothing special happened to day... just lotsa reminiscing... and few tears...
Need to relax... clear my thoughts... today is our big day....
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
September 15, 2009 11:28 p.m.
as requested....
TODAY I HAD AN INTERESTING DISCUSSION WITH DEANNA.....
we talked about dicks..... and stuff.......
LMAO
but before that....
Around 3 am last night, I cant breath.... I got scared... so I woke my parents and told them to bring me to the hospital... then after a few minutes my condition improved.... I knew the cause... OVER FATIGUE.... no wonder..... so I had to sleep beside my mom so she can watch over me. It felt good coz' its been a while since I slept beside her... she was hugging me all night and I had a peaceful sleep :P
I woke up around 11 am... YES! I WAS LATE @ WORK haha.... who cares... I dont care if they'll give me another warning coz... I'm kinda confident that I wont lose my job. My supervisor asked me why I was late and I just told her that I had to do something important (SLEEP) haha. Then the day went sooo fast. It was a sad day at work coz two of my good co-worker left our company today coz' they found a new job for the Revenue of Canada. I was also texting with Ben, and it was not fun coz' I felt so stupid. Like I didn't know that he's kinda uncomfy with my texts, and he also told me that Deanna said that I'm weird so I felt really bad.... Then deanna texted me saying that she didnt say anything like that... so I assumed that Ben told me that so I would stop flirting with him. And that's what I'll do... I thought I was just being funny and gay to him, I don't know... ANYWAY!! It was still a wonderful day because guess what!!! @ more days and it's our THURSDAY LEAGUE!! and TOMO (my gay jap friend) will play for our team as LIBERO!! WEEE!!.....
Im chatting with Deanna right now and we talked about DICKS and STUFF lol... like how im so horny for this guy... and STUFF lol..... it was fun chatting with her...... I love GIRL TALKS... haha.....
I'm gonna sleep now.. coz I need to rest! should be ready for our LEAGUE!!! I should prove them that A GAY GUY LIKE ME CAN KICK SOME STRAIGHT ASS!!! bwahahahaha *high pitch laugh
TODAY I HAD AN INTERESTING DISCUSSION WITH DEANNA.....
we talked about dicks..... and stuff.......
LMAO
but before that....
Around 3 am last night, I cant breath.... I got scared... so I woke my parents and told them to bring me to the hospital... then after a few minutes my condition improved.... I knew the cause... OVER FATIGUE.... no wonder..... so I had to sleep beside my mom so she can watch over me. It felt good coz' its been a while since I slept beside her... she was hugging me all night and I had a peaceful sleep :P
I woke up around 11 am... YES! I WAS LATE @ WORK haha.... who cares... I dont care if they'll give me another warning coz... I'm kinda confident that I wont lose my job. My supervisor asked me why I was late and I just told her that I had to do something important (SLEEP) haha. Then the day went sooo fast. It was a sad day at work coz two of my good co-worker left our company today coz' they found a new job for the Revenue of Canada. I was also texting with Ben, and it was not fun coz' I felt so stupid. Like I didn't know that he's kinda uncomfy with my texts, and he also told me that Deanna said that I'm weird so I felt really bad.... Then deanna texted me saying that she didnt say anything like that... so I assumed that Ben told me that so I would stop flirting with him. And that's what I'll do... I thought I was just being funny and gay to him, I don't know... ANYWAY!! It was still a wonderful day because guess what!!! @ more days and it's our THURSDAY LEAGUE!! and TOMO (my gay jap friend) will play for our team as LIBERO!! WEEE!!.....
Im chatting with Deanna right now and we talked about DICKS and STUFF lol... like how im so horny for this guy... and STUFF lol..... it was fun chatting with her...... I love GIRL TALKS... haha.....
I'm gonna sleep now.. coz I need to rest! should be ready for our LEAGUE!!! I should prove them that A GAY GUY LIKE ME CAN KICK SOME STRAIGHT ASS!!! bwahahahaha *high pitch laugh
September 15 2009 2:14 a.m.
OH btw....
MY VGVA sisters were also playing in the same league..... and IT WAS FUN PLAYING AGAINST THEM!....
It was overwhelming when they told me that theyre looking forward to play with me this coming sunday which is the start of our Gay League...
I was also overwhelmed when "all" of them told me that I topped the Setter Evalauations.... and all of them congratulated me... mannnn its like... winning the miss universe.... I'm just happy that people are acknowledging my skills and all I can do to return their compliments is to stay humble and just show them what I got... and most importantly... have fun playing volleyball with them!!!
one more thing.... "sana bakla nalang siya LOL"...
teehee!!
MY VGVA sisters were also playing in the same league..... and IT WAS FUN PLAYING AGAINST THEM!....
It was overwhelming when they told me that theyre looking forward to play with me this coming sunday which is the start of our Gay League...
I was also overwhelmed when "all" of them told me that I topped the Setter Evalauations.... and all of them congratulated me... mannnn its like... winning the miss universe.... I'm just happy that people are acknowledging my skills and all I can do to return their compliments is to stay humble and just show them what I got... and most importantly... have fun playing volleyball with them!!!
one more thing.... "sana bakla nalang siya LOL"...
teehee!!
September 15, 2009 1:52 a.m.
WOW.... what a tiring day!!
2 hours of sleep
8 hours of work
4 hours of nonstop vball for two teams in one league.....
CRAZY!!!!
I think that says it all LOL... Today was just the seeding games for the Monday league where I play for my friend's team. It was crazy because we only had FOUR! and we should be at least five to play or else our games will be forfeited. My friend's team members bailed due to reasons that I don't know... Thank God Ben came and my Thursday League teammate Derek showed up. Our first two games were forfeited coz' we only had four til Derek came... then we did well after. After our pool seeding games, I was asked by a friend to play for their team in a different pool coz' they also had 4 players... so I asked Ben if he wanted to play too and he did, so basically Me and Ben played in 2 different pools today LOL... so Tiring!!
Today's seeding games made me know my teammates Ben and Derek better... I learned that Derek is short-tempered coz' he trashed talk with our arrogant opponent earlier and they almost fought LOL and Ben is a CRYBABY lol... He complaints a lot about everything that affects his game like... His stomach... his wound... wide sets from my friend (not to mention that he didnt place the ball in after a bad set) etc etc.... it's annoying but CUTE lol probably coz... I think he is really cute LOL.... *you know who you are..... don't be jealous... just kidding LOL
After our games, my friend Tomo decided that he will join my thursday team and will bail on his team LOL he'll be a big help for our team coz' he is a GOOD LIBERO!! TRUST ME!! in our language... "SOBRANG DUMEPENSA... NAKAKALERKI!!"
Me and Ben got a ride from my friend Rob (tell me... am I TOO FRIENDLY to know lotsa people LOL) then we went to Mc Donalds. HE ATE 3 DIFFERENT BURGERS, A LARGE FRIES... and a DRINK.... you shouldve seen him!! He's like a Starved Chinese Hobo! lol
Then we went home....... and now were talking on the phone......
....
....
...
and were done.....
WHAT A DAY!!! :P
2 hours of sleep
8 hours of work
4 hours of nonstop vball for two teams in one league.....
CRAZY!!!!
I think that says it all LOL... Today was just the seeding games for the Monday league where I play for my friend's team. It was crazy because we only had FOUR! and we should be at least five to play or else our games will be forfeited. My friend's team members bailed due to reasons that I don't know... Thank God Ben came and my Thursday League teammate Derek showed up. Our first two games were forfeited coz' we only had four til Derek came... then we did well after. After our pool seeding games, I was asked by a friend to play for their team in a different pool coz' they also had 4 players... so I asked Ben if he wanted to play too and he did, so basically Me and Ben played in 2 different pools today LOL... so Tiring!!
Today's seeding games made me know my teammates Ben and Derek better... I learned that Derek is short-tempered coz' he trashed talk with our arrogant opponent earlier and they almost fought LOL and Ben is a CRYBABY lol... He complaints a lot about everything that affects his game like... His stomach... his wound... wide sets from my friend (not to mention that he didnt place the ball in after a bad set) etc etc.... it's annoying but CUTE lol probably coz... I think he is really cute LOL.... *you know who you are..... don't be jealous... just kidding LOL
After our games, my friend Tomo decided that he will join my thursday team and will bail on his team LOL he'll be a big help for our team coz' he is a GOOD LIBERO!! TRUST ME!! in our language... "SOBRANG DUMEPENSA... NAKAKALERKI!!"
Me and Ben got a ride from my friend Rob (tell me... am I TOO FRIENDLY to know lotsa people LOL) then we went to Mc Donalds. HE ATE 3 DIFFERENT BURGERS, A LARGE FRIES... and a DRINK.... you shouldve seen him!! He's like a Starved Chinese Hobo! lol
Then we went home....... and now were talking on the phone......
....
....
...
and were done.....
WHAT A DAY!!! :P
Monday, September 14, 2009
September 14, 2009 12:47 a.m.
I had fun playing volleyball! But before that, let me tell you something that I did before playing :P I went to this subway store at a skytrain station where I met this cute crew named RONNIE, I think I told you about him already... I really wanted to see him again so even if I wasnt hungry, I went there to get a 6" tuna sub... and talked to him ofcourse. The funny thing was he was smiling at me when I entered the store and even if he was serving another customer he said hi to me and asked me if my day is going pretty well haha. I was blushing when I answered him. I really wanna get his number but Im too chicken to ask haha, maybe next time.
Only few people came for volleyball but enough for us to had 4 teams of four. It was fun and tiring and I think it was a good practice for me since today will be the start of our monday league where I will be playing for my friend's team :P
I was waiting for the bus earlier when I heard someone calling my name. It was JOHN- someone I dated almost a year ago, someone I didnt like before coz he was geeky.. more like nerd... but he looks so cool now haha.. He told me that he was surprised to see me again and he asked me why I didnt reply to his text messages, I told him that my phone was broken that time lol. I took his number again and asked him if he wanna watch a movie sometime and he said yes :P
Then I got home, my brother's birthday celebration is over which is good coz the house is now clean and quiet, then I gave him $50 as a birthday gift. Then I took a shower just in case I'm gonna wake up late for work :P and now I'm chatting with Ben...
I really miss chatting with him, but I understand coz he's now busy in school....
I also miss Deanna... but shes busy too.. doing work and school...
Well we still text each other so its all good :P they know that I'm just here haha... and I have unlimited text plan!!
I think that's it for today.... Im gonna crash now... coz I'll be so tired tommorow (work 7-3:30 then Vball 8-11 pm)
SEE YAH
Only few people came for volleyball but enough for us to had 4 teams of four. It was fun and tiring and I think it was a good practice for me since today will be the start of our monday league where I will be playing for my friend's team :P
I was waiting for the bus earlier when I heard someone calling my name. It was JOHN- someone I dated almost a year ago, someone I didnt like before coz he was geeky.. more like nerd... but he looks so cool now haha.. He told me that he was surprised to see me again and he asked me why I didnt reply to his text messages, I told him that my phone was broken that time lol. I took his number again and asked him if he wanna watch a movie sometime and he said yes :P
Then I got home, my brother's birthday celebration is over which is good coz the house is now clean and quiet, then I gave him $50 as a birthday gift. Then I took a shower just in case I'm gonna wake up late for work :P and now I'm chatting with Ben...
I really miss chatting with him, but I understand coz he's now busy in school....
I also miss Deanna... but shes busy too.. doing work and school...
Well we still text each other so its all good :P they know that I'm just here haha... and I have unlimited text plan!!
I think that's it for today.... Im gonna crash now... coz I'll be so tired tommorow (work 7-3:30 then Vball 8-11 pm)
SEE YAH
Saturday, September 12, 2009
September 12, 2009 10:49 p.m.
Crap.... Today was a boring day! I slept around 5am then woke up like 1ish to clean the house coz tommorow will be my stupid brother's birthday celebration. I had to clean our room coz' our cousins and his friends are coming and I dont want them to see our "clean" place. Anyway I went to the doctor this morning and had my skin checked. She didnt look so smart and told me that I shouldnt worry coz for her what's in my face is just a type of acne that doesnt produce pus. I was shocked by what she said coz' I'm sure this isn't acne!! Im a NURSE so I have knowledge about the symptoms that I'm experiencing. So she gave me a prescription and told me to come back after a month if the cream wont help me, then shell refer me to a dermatologist. WHAT A STUPID GENERAL PRACTITIONER! I mean... Why wait for a month if she can just refer me to a DERMATOLOGIST who know more about this.
So I went to the pharmacy to get more information about my prescription that I had no intentions of buying. I know this isnt acne. It`s either I have psoriasis or lupus. I know both souds crazy but what can I do? Im thinking about this coz I'm also experiencing joint problems, and at this age, Its unbearable! and my joint problems are just recent issues! If you will study the sypmtoms that I have (joint problems and rashes in scalp and skin) you might suspect psoriasis or lupus and if you're a SMART DOCTOR you would order a blood test then wait for the results then give me a proper REFERRAL! The pharmacist told me that what I'm thinking is more believable and she even insisted not to get the prescribed medication that my doctor gave me coz she's also convinced that what I have is not acne! I'm going to get a second opinion tommorow so well see what will happen.
By the way, I was invited by MY CRUSH IVAN to play vball with him today right? but I woke up so late that I forgot that I promised him that I'll play T_T anyway there's lotsa time available and I didnt feel like playing today coz I really wanted to see the doctor. I was planning to go downtown to shop for clothes after seeing my doctor but I felt lazy so I just shopped for clothes at the mall across our street. I didnt find anything good but a cool purple shirt. Then I inquired about getting another D&G prescription glasses coz I lost mine a couple of weeks ago and its hard for me to appreciate cute guys without glasses. Unfortunately, they didnt have what I'm looking for and told me that their other branch which is located downtown has it so I might go there tommorow to shop for more clothes and checked their other store. Yes! I will not stay here tommorow for my brother's birthday celebration coz' I really dont wanna be involved hahaha.. but I'll stay for a bit. Then after shopping I'm gonna play volleyball!! :P
I didnt see Deanna and Ben today coz she's working and he's attending their "FROSH" thing. I hope they're ok now after what happened (remember the hint that I told you yesterday lol).
It's so hot right now! feels like im in the Philippines, and now I'm missing my friends T_T. If I'm in the Philippines, it's either I'm playing volleyball with my friends right now, or probably just hanging around our plaza while having smoke and coffee, or maybe playing DOTA. But look! Im here in Canada, Inside a boring room... in front of a laptop.... so bored.
maybe I should watch some gay porn to ease this crappy boredom. LOL just kiddin, it's still early for that.. maybe later! lol
I'm gonna watch some anime online so ill ttyl!!!
So I went to the pharmacy to get more information about my prescription that I had no intentions of buying. I know this isnt acne. It`s either I have psoriasis or lupus. I know both souds crazy but what can I do? Im thinking about this coz I'm also experiencing joint problems, and at this age, Its unbearable! and my joint problems are just recent issues! If you will study the sypmtoms that I have (joint problems and rashes in scalp and skin) you might suspect psoriasis or lupus and if you're a SMART DOCTOR you would order a blood test then wait for the results then give me a proper REFERRAL! The pharmacist told me that what I'm thinking is more believable and she even insisted not to get the prescribed medication that my doctor gave me coz she's also convinced that what I have is not acne! I'm going to get a second opinion tommorow so well see what will happen.
By the way, I was invited by MY CRUSH IVAN to play vball with him today right? but I woke up so late that I forgot that I promised him that I'll play T_T anyway there's lotsa time available and I didnt feel like playing today coz I really wanted to see the doctor. I was planning to go downtown to shop for clothes after seeing my doctor but I felt lazy so I just shopped for clothes at the mall across our street. I didnt find anything good but a cool purple shirt. Then I inquired about getting another D&G prescription glasses coz I lost mine a couple of weeks ago and its hard for me to appreciate cute guys without glasses. Unfortunately, they didnt have what I'm looking for and told me that their other branch which is located downtown has it so I might go there tommorow to shop for more clothes and checked their other store. Yes! I will not stay here tommorow for my brother's birthday celebration coz' I really dont wanna be involved hahaha.. but I'll stay for a bit. Then after shopping I'm gonna play volleyball!! :P
I didnt see Deanna and Ben today coz she's working and he's attending their "FROSH" thing. I hope they're ok now after what happened (remember the hint that I told you yesterday lol).
It's so hot right now! feels like im in the Philippines, and now I'm missing my friends T_T. If I'm in the Philippines, it's either I'm playing volleyball with my friends right now, or probably just hanging around our plaza while having smoke and coffee, or maybe playing DOTA. But look! Im here in Canada, Inside a boring room... in front of a laptop.... so bored.
maybe I should watch some gay porn to ease this crappy boredom. LOL just kiddin, it's still early for that.. maybe later! lol
I'm gonna watch some anime online so ill ttyl!!!
September 12, 2009 12:14 a.m.
TGI.. S?? Friday is over hahaha and I had a wonderful day!
I had the longest sleep on a thursday night ever! 9 hours!! Thats why I woke up this morning with lotsa energy.... I wasnt late at work and I took a shower! lol.... Deanna and Ben texted me last night but I was already sleeping so I wasnt able to text them back but I did it this morning. My first few minutes at work was not pleasant coz I talked to four customers who said the F word to me coz I cant give them prices over the phone (which we dont have coz I'm not in the sales department) but I didnt care coz it was FRIDAY! I was supposed to watch a movie with a friend but I had to bail coz we played volleyball.
Something funny is going on between Ben and Deanna and I will not write it here coz' I dont want to upset them hahaha.... Its not funny for them but it was childish and hilarious for me... to give you a hint, they had an arguement about "seat plans" coz they planned to sit together in class but it didnt happen coz Ben sat in a different seat coz he didnt wanna sit the girl who sat next to his spot and Deanna was mad coz she gave up her seat with her friends so she can sit beside Ben but it didnt happen.. That was a hint wasnt it?
Anyway I immediately went home after work, prepared my things for volleyball, checked some mails and went Downtown coz' my friends were already waiting for me. Deanna didnt play coz she had work and Ben attended their University "Frosh" like an acquaintance party or event kind of. I was in the skytrain on my way to volleyball when I saw this guy who was looking at me, I thought he was a friend of mine coz he looked like my friend so I smiled at him but he wasnt smiling back so I waved at him. When I looked closer.... He wasnt my friend LOL and I dont know him at all! I was so embarassed I had to bend forward and pretend that I was sleeping until he got off the train LOL.
One of my "old" friend played with us, His name is Neil (same name with my ex-bestfriend) and I knew him 4 years ago when I was still in the Philippines and today was the first time that we met. Weird? Okay, four years ago I chatted with him then he eventually became my textmate, he's gay too, but it didnt last long for reasons that I cant remember. SO, 2 weeks ago I got a message from him in my friendster account telling me that He's here in Vancouver. I was surprised coz' I cant recall him at all but eventually I did after he told me the story on how we met and stuff. He just came here two months ago so meeting me was hard for him coz' he's not familliar with our area yet, in fact his dad gave him a ride earlier so he can play with me. I think well be good "friends" yes... just friends :P
Volleyball was ok, not that good coz' only few good players showed up. I bussed with my friend mike, grabbed 2 slices of pizza on our way home then crashed here in the living room. The day wasnt over yet when I got an invitation from a friend asking me to play volleyball with him "later". He is one of my crushes so I SAID YES of course.....
Oh by the way... It was my STUPID BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY today.. well yesterday coz it's past 12 already... Nothing special happened coz the celebration will be held tommorow. I'm not really that interested to his life so... I don't care.. LOL
I still think an F-C student doesnt deserve a $600 Laptop. Specially if he's not being helpful to our family at all.. I mean... Summer have passed... There were lotsa work available for students... where was he??? OH! WITH HIS FRIENDS!.... having fun while wasting money from my parents.... what a dork!
Okay so before this crap ruin my day Ill have to say Bye Bye now... :P see yah later!
I had the longest sleep on a thursday night ever! 9 hours!! Thats why I woke up this morning with lotsa energy.... I wasnt late at work and I took a shower! lol.... Deanna and Ben texted me last night but I was already sleeping so I wasnt able to text them back but I did it this morning. My first few minutes at work was not pleasant coz I talked to four customers who said the F word to me coz I cant give them prices over the phone (which we dont have coz I'm not in the sales department) but I didnt care coz it was FRIDAY! I was supposed to watch a movie with a friend but I had to bail coz we played volleyball.
Something funny is going on between Ben and Deanna and I will not write it here coz' I dont want to upset them hahaha.... Its not funny for them but it was childish and hilarious for me... to give you a hint, they had an arguement about "seat plans" coz they planned to sit together in class but it didnt happen coz Ben sat in a different seat coz he didnt wanna sit the girl who sat next to his spot and Deanna was mad coz she gave up her seat with her friends so she can sit beside Ben but it didnt happen.. That was a hint wasnt it?
Anyway I immediately went home after work, prepared my things for volleyball, checked some mails and went Downtown coz' my friends were already waiting for me. Deanna didnt play coz she had work and Ben attended their University "Frosh" like an acquaintance party or event kind of. I was in the skytrain on my way to volleyball when I saw this guy who was looking at me, I thought he was a friend of mine coz he looked like my friend so I smiled at him but he wasnt smiling back so I waved at him. When I looked closer.... He wasnt my friend LOL and I dont know him at all! I was so embarassed I had to bend forward and pretend that I was sleeping until he got off the train LOL.
One of my "old" friend played with us, His name is Neil (same name with my ex-bestfriend) and I knew him 4 years ago when I was still in the Philippines and today was the first time that we met. Weird? Okay, four years ago I chatted with him then he eventually became my textmate, he's gay too, but it didnt last long for reasons that I cant remember. SO, 2 weeks ago I got a message from him in my friendster account telling me that He's here in Vancouver. I was surprised coz' I cant recall him at all but eventually I did after he told me the story on how we met and stuff. He just came here two months ago so meeting me was hard for him coz' he's not familliar with our area yet, in fact his dad gave him a ride earlier so he can play with me. I think well be good "friends" yes... just friends :P
Volleyball was ok, not that good coz' only few good players showed up. I bussed with my friend mike, grabbed 2 slices of pizza on our way home then crashed here in the living room. The day wasnt over yet when I got an invitation from a friend asking me to play volleyball with him "later". He is one of my crushes so I SAID YES of course.....
Oh by the way... It was my STUPID BROTHER'S BIRTHDAY today.. well yesterday coz it's past 12 already... Nothing special happened coz the celebration will be held tommorow. I'm not really that interested to his life so... I don't care.. LOL
I still think an F-C student doesnt deserve a $600 Laptop. Specially if he's not being helpful to our family at all.. I mean... Summer have passed... There were lotsa work available for students... where was he??? OH! WITH HIS FRIENDS!.... having fun while wasting money from my parents.... what a dork!
Okay so before this crap ruin my day Ill have to say Bye Bye now... :P see yah later!
Thursday, September 10, 2009
September 10, 2009 8:11 p.m.
I just finished eating dinner, had chopsuey and chicken. It was funny coz in the middle of our meal, my Aunt came and ranted about the way my cousins were treating her. Believe it or not... she's still ranting until now :P I dont wanna get invlolved about about their problems so I'm here in the living room blogging and downloading the latest Naruto Shippudden episode.
Damn I miss MARCO lol....
I wonder what Deanna and Ben are doing right now...
Anyway.... I think That's it for today coz I'm gonna sleep early today!!
TOMMOROW IS VOLLEYBALL DAY!!!
SEE YAH!
Damn I miss MARCO lol....
I wonder what Deanna and Ben are doing right now...
Anyway.... I think That's it for today coz I'm gonna sleep early today!!
TOMMOROW IS VOLLEYBALL DAY!!!
SEE YAH!
September 10, 2009 7:30 p.m.
Today was indeed an interesting day....
I slept around 4 am coz' I watched a Filipino variety show called WOWOWEE. Woke up around 10 am, didnt take a shower... like yesterday lol coz' I didn't wanna be late(I TOOK A SHOWER AROUND 2AM SO STFU lol). I was so sleepy at work so I took naps when I had time. The day went fast because I was so wiped out.
Fifteen minutes before the end of my shift, I went to the washroom to pee. After that, I twisted the knob and opened the door and someone was waiting outside the washroom... IT WAS MARCO. I was shocked to see him, I didn't know what to say but... how are you.... he told me that he was calling me on his way to our office but I left my phone in my desk and I went to the washroom. He told me that he just went to get his lock coz' he will be using it for school.
To refresh your memory, Marco was my ex-"bestfriend" and co-worker. We had a somehow secret "kinda affair" that didnt last coz it was heart breaking. Anyway, for some reason I felt happy to see him and talk to him again. I missed him, and I am confused.. not because I still love him but its like I wanna be friends with him again. Well we'll see what will happen.
I was planning to play volleyball tonight but I am so tired so I decided to just stay home and relax... sleep early... then start a wonderful day tommorow. I'll just have dinner so ill be right back to blog :P
I slept around 4 am coz' I watched a Filipino variety show called WOWOWEE. Woke up around 10 am, didnt take a shower... like yesterday lol coz' I didn't wanna be late(I TOOK A SHOWER AROUND 2AM SO STFU lol). I was so sleepy at work so I took naps when I had time. The day went fast because I was so wiped out.
Fifteen minutes before the end of my shift, I went to the washroom to pee. After that, I twisted the knob and opened the door and someone was waiting outside the washroom... IT WAS MARCO. I was shocked to see him, I didn't know what to say but... how are you.... he told me that he was calling me on his way to our office but I left my phone in my desk and I went to the washroom. He told me that he just went to get his lock coz' he will be using it for school.
To refresh your memory, Marco was my ex-"bestfriend" and co-worker. We had a somehow secret "kinda affair" that didnt last coz it was heart breaking. Anyway, for some reason I felt happy to see him and talk to him again. I missed him, and I am confused.. not because I still love him but its like I wanna be friends with him again. Well we'll see what will happen.
I was planning to play volleyball tonight but I am so tired so I decided to just stay home and relax... sleep early... then start a wonderful day tommorow. I'll just have dinner so ill be right back to blog :P
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
September 9, 2009 10:37 p.m. (09-09-09)
Today was a shitty day! IT RAINED ALL DAY! I woke up at exactly 10:00 am coz my alarm didnt work this morning and I only had 30 minutes before my shift started so guess what, I didnt take a shower and just went to work with a brushed teeth and a washed face! Nothing special happened while I was at work, just same old crap... calling clients to convince them to have our sales representatives inside their house to sell them a bath tub.
I was kinda wet when I came to work coz I had to ride my bike. If i walked, I would be in so much trouble coz' I cant afford to be late since I already had warnings about my attendance. Glad that Ben said goodmorning to me so it kinda made my day...
After work, I went home and took a shower then went to the recreation center which is just 2 blocks away from our apartment to play volleyball. It started at 8:00 p.m. til 10:00, and it was shitty too! It was not even recreational level, more like.... dumb. So I went home around 9:30 p.m. then I had a shitty dinner coz what I had for lunch was the same thing that I just had for dinner- porkchops :-( But I had no choice so I ate the poor old porkchop .
My mom was helping my sister with her homework while I was having dinner. Yesterday was the start of their school so everyone in our house were kinda busy. While eating, I asked my mom when are we gonna move to a house coz I cant wait to have my own room again (kind of... when can I move out?) and she answered me with "We'll move to a house as soon as you become a Nurse here so our Income will be stable enough to support our Bills" I almost choked after hearing what she said and asked her "Do you mean that we will not move to a house if I wont become a Nurse here?" she answered me with "Why? Dont you wanna be a Nurse here?" then I stopped asking questions coz I was in a bad mood already and I dont wanna upset my mom.
F!!! this LIFE!! WHY CANT I JUST... MOVE OUT.... BE A NURSE.... LIVE MY OWN LIFE???
I can.... but I can't..... Im a prisoner of my own sense of responsibility........
I am confused....
I dont want to think about it anymore coz I ran out of tears...... I think that's it for now... Im gonna take a good shower then chat with friends after....
*sighs
I was kinda wet when I came to work coz I had to ride my bike. If i walked, I would be in so much trouble coz' I cant afford to be late since I already had warnings about my attendance. Glad that Ben said goodmorning to me so it kinda made my day...
After work, I went home and took a shower then went to the recreation center which is just 2 blocks away from our apartment to play volleyball. It started at 8:00 p.m. til 10:00, and it was shitty too! It was not even recreational level, more like.... dumb. So I went home around 9:30 p.m. then I had a shitty dinner coz what I had for lunch was the same thing that I just had for dinner- porkchops :-( But I had no choice so I ate the poor old porkchop .
My mom was helping my sister with her homework while I was having dinner. Yesterday was the start of their school so everyone in our house were kinda busy. While eating, I asked my mom when are we gonna move to a house coz I cant wait to have my own room again (kind of... when can I move out?) and she answered me with "We'll move to a house as soon as you become a Nurse here so our Income will be stable enough to support our Bills" I almost choked after hearing what she said and asked her "Do you mean that we will not move to a house if I wont become a Nurse here?" she answered me with "Why? Dont you wanna be a Nurse here?" then I stopped asking questions coz I was in a bad mood already and I dont wanna upset my mom.
F!!! this LIFE!! WHY CANT I JUST... MOVE OUT.... BE A NURSE.... LIVE MY OWN LIFE???
I can.... but I can't..... Im a prisoner of my own sense of responsibility........
I am confused....
I dont want to think about it anymore coz I ran out of tears...... I think that's it for now... Im gonna take a good shower then chat with friends after....
*sighs
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
September 8, 2009 9:10 p.m.
YUMMM!! Salmon Saute'd in ginger and black olives :P before I ate dinner my friend Tomo (hes Japanese and Gay :P) called me to confirm that I'll be playing in his team for the Monday League, I am so excited right now coz' it'll be next week, same with our Thursday league with my team "TANDEM X" which includes Ben of course. Then next sunday will be the start of the VGVA (Vancouver Gay Vball Assoc.) Sunday league :P Damn this is lookin pretty good.
Anyway while I was enjoying my food, I thought about my life as a kid and it was unpleasant. I can see a young innocent kid being beaten up by his dad because he can't get what his dad was explaining to him about school lessons. His dad was tutoring him about lessons ahead and it was just hard for the kid to focus while being slapped in the face. The kis was being treated like that even if he's getting A's in school. I can also see the kid's dad hitting the poor kid's butt and legs with a leather belt or a bamboo stick because he did a small mistake. I also saw how the kid was so happy when his dad left the country to work abroad. It was one of the kid's wonderful experience.
Thank God the food is good!.... These are just some of the reasons why I'm not close to my dad. I am all grown up now and I'm not a kid anymore, I will defend myself from anyone who will try to hurt me in anyway.
Im talking to my aunt in the Philippines right now while writing here. They are calling to greet my stupid brother a happy birthday coz' he'll turn 17 this Friday. I just hope his brain will grow as well coz there has been no changes since he turned 10.
Alright! I'll see y'all later coz I'll be chatting with Deanna and Ben now... TEE HEE!!
Anyway while I was enjoying my food, I thought about my life as a kid and it was unpleasant. I can see a young innocent kid being beaten up by his dad because he can't get what his dad was explaining to him about school lessons. His dad was tutoring him about lessons ahead and it was just hard for the kid to focus while being slapped in the face. The kis was being treated like that even if he's getting A's in school. I can also see the kid's dad hitting the poor kid's butt and legs with a leather belt or a bamboo stick because he did a small mistake. I also saw how the kid was so happy when his dad left the country to work abroad. It was one of the kid's wonderful experience.
Thank God the food is good!.... These are just some of the reasons why I'm not close to my dad. I am all grown up now and I'm not a kid anymore, I will defend myself from anyone who will try to hurt me in anyway.
Im talking to my aunt in the Philippines right now while writing here. They are calling to greet my stupid brother a happy birthday coz' he'll turn 17 this Friday. I just hope his brain will grow as well coz there has been no changes since he turned 10.
Alright! I'll see y'all later coz I'll be chatting with Deanna and Ben now... TEE HEE!!
September 8 2009 7:39 p.m.
I just got home from work. Today was another ordinary boring day and I'm pretty tired coz' I only had 5 hours of sleep. Nothing special happened today, just shitty call center job setting up appointments for our sales representatives and trust me, though were not selling anything.. talking to our clients for 8 hours over the phone is not fun, specially if you've been doing this for almost two years now. I was eating cashew nuts while dialing to ease boredom and I was also texting with Ben secretly coz I'm dead if our supervisor will know out about it.
My work is just a 5 minute bike ride from our apartment, roughly 5-6 blocks away. Since it's close to our place I always go home for my 30-minte lunch break, that way I can eat "real" food and I can "drop off the kids" after LOL. I had seafood fried rice and pork adobo for lunch and it was reaaaaaalllly good.
When I was texting Ben, we talked about our league and our team, and my health. I was having weird symptoms that is leading to a dreadful illness- lupus. I am a hypochondriac haha probably coz I am a Nurse so I tend to overthink about the different symptoms that I'm experiencing. I hope this is nothing serious. Right now I am watching TFC "Florinda" starring one of the Philippine's best actress Maricel Soriano. I will be getting some food for dinner while watching so I'll see you later guys!
My work is just a 5 minute bike ride from our apartment, roughly 5-6 blocks away. Since it's close to our place I always go home for my 30-minte lunch break, that way I can eat "real" food and I can "drop off the kids" after LOL. I had seafood fried rice and pork adobo for lunch and it was reaaaaaalllly good.
When I was texting Ben, we talked about our league and our team, and my health. I was having weird symptoms that is leading to a dreadful illness- lupus. I am a hypochondriac haha probably coz I am a Nurse so I tend to overthink about the different symptoms that I'm experiencing. I hope this is nothing serious. Right now I am watching TFC "Florinda" starring one of the Philippine's best actress Maricel Soriano. I will be getting some food for dinner while watching so I'll see you later guys!
September 8, 2009 12:38 a.m.
I was having a bad day earlier coz my dad will buy a laptop for my brother and I hate it. OKAY!! IM JEALOUS COZ ITS UNFAIR!! first of all Im not really close to both of them.... coz i had issues with my dad and he knows that I have a grudge on him, we just dont talk about it. Secondly, my brother is the blacksheep of our family. HE SUCK IN SCHOOL like PERFECT C'S and F'S. He also has his stupid FRIENDS. and I know why my dad likes him. COZ HE CAN GIVE HIM A GRANDCHILD unlike me! Its just unfair to see him spending that much money on him, when I never really had anything special from him. It sucks to see my parents spending that much money on him when I'm giving $1000 out of my $1400 average monthly salary as a contribution to our household bills. Than means I only have $400 dollars to spend to myself, and I'm the one paying for my own phone bill too. If I wont become a Nurse here in Canada does that mean that I'm gonna be like this FOREVER?? It's just unfair!
I wanna move out but I cant, coz my sense of responsibility is holding me back, that IM HERE IN CANADA TO HELP MY FAMILY!
So as much as I want to complaint about how I feel... I CANT because it will break my mom's heart... so I just have to RANT ABOUT IT here in this blog just to release my tensions.
I just got home from dinner with Ben, too bad our good friend Deanna (whom I just also met the day I met Ben) didnt make it coz' she's with her friends. But its ok coz' shes just 3 stores away from the place where we ate LOL. We went to a jap restaurant in Burnaby and when we got there Ben asked me if he can borrow my iPhone, of course he can so I handed my iPhone and I was weirded by what he was doing. He was wrote something in my notes then he handed the phone back to me and gave me a present. It was a Naruto plush toy and its soooo cute, and the note says like this:
"From Ben and Deanna
Here you go karl. This is a little something from Ben and Deanna. We hope you like it! you are a crazy vball player.. Just keep doing what you do! and you can talk to both of us when you need to find someone to talk to! Naruto all the way? hahaha. btw this thing is just a random gift lol...
have a nice day =)"
It means a lot to me... I'm glad I met these two wonderful people :P
Okay! Going back to what I was telling about my life in the Philippines, It was awesome and I surely miss the not so old times. My first few months here in Canada were devastating, I was homesick and so depressed about what happened to me and my boyfriend. A few months have passed and I moved on, I met new friends through volleyball and found a stable job. The first friends that I met here were Denny, Anh, and Cyrus and we still play together until now. Sometime in August of 2008 I met a Filipino guy through an online gay social website, his name is Neil. The first time I saw him it was like love at first sight haha coz' hes so cute and simple, but hes verry young. After a couple of days of talking to him, I figured out that he dont really like me to be his date so we just became friends, but I still liked him so being friends with Neil is cool to coz' I'll get a chance to see him often.
A few months have passed and we became bestfriends and we met two more gay friends- Jude and Arvin. At work, I found another friend and his name is Marco- a 24 year old straight Filipino guy who loves basketball, sushi and karaoke. He didnt know that I am gay until I felt guilty coz I was not being true to him, so I told him about him and he's cool with that. In fact we became closer to each other after I told him about it, so close that I started to like him (who wouldnt fall for a guy like him, he picks me up to work, asked me out for dinner after work, taught me basketball, brought me to his girlfriend's parties, talked to me in MSN for hours and called me in my Phone when his GF is already sleeping). I started to doubt his sexuality because of how he treated me and one day, I told him that I love him but I am not expecting anything about it, that I just wanna be true to myself. Two weeks after I told him about it, we were having our regular dinner after work in a vietnamese restaurant when he bacame so silent and wont eat his food. I asked him why he's like that and he told me that he's treating me like that coz' "HE LIKE ME".
I was shocked about what I heard from him, I was so happy that I would cry. After dinner we went to the recreation center just to hangout coz' it was still early for us to pick his girlfriend from work. In the car we were holding hands until we reached the rec. center. There he told me something I wouldn't forget in my entire life:
"Karl, I shouldve met you before her, you should've moved here in Canada before we became lovers"
From that day on, we became "like" boyfriends coz we had no commitment. We were secretly going out and He would lie to his girlfriend everytime she asked him where did he go. It was wonderful until I felt like a mistress. The feeling was so painful and I couldnt bear it anymore, I had to let him go. It was one of the hardest decision that I made in my life, But I am glad I did it!
Because of what happened, I decided to go back to the Philippines with my Mom to unwind. I went back on June 2009 and it was a 3 week vacation. I've never been so happy again, I spent all my days with my friends and I also had the chance to be with my ex-boyfriend who still loved me and was excited to be with me again. But I knew that I shouldn't gave him any hopes so even if it broke my heart, when I left the Philippines, I told him to forget me coz' he deserves to be happy.
So I went back here in Canada with lots of happy memories, and a sad one. The good thing was, my vacation helped me to forget everything about Marco. I kept myself busy playing volleyball and spent more time with the person that I cared the most that time, Neil. Jude was very busy about his work so most of the time, it was just me Arvin and Neil who hang out together. It was last month, August, when Arvin introduced me and Neil to his friends and it was a big group. That time I felt like I'm home, that I would never be sad again here in Canada coz I now have a lot of friends. But I felt something weird at the same time.
I was falling in love with Neil again, I knew it was wrong and its not the right time coz he just broke up with his boyfriend that time. But it hurts me to see him sad that I would like to take care of him myself so I told him that I still love him but as expected, he didnt want me to love him. He felt sorry that we talked about staying away from each other at the moment but I don't want him to suffer because of what I did, so I was the one who decided to be away until my feelings for him is completely gone because seeing him everyday wont help me and since he's always with our friends, that means I was basically staying away from them.
It was another hard decision for me and I know that I was wrong. But what can I do? It's not my fault to love him either??
Anyway so that's what happened last month. I kept myself busy playing volleyball as usual and that's how I met BEN and DEANNA. It was perfect timing to have them when it's like this. So far everything is going well, September is a GOOD MONTH for me.. so far..... I joined 3 volleyball leagues this fall, One will start next monday and I will be playing with my friends who live downtown, the other one will start next thursday and I'll be playing with the team that I just made and Ben is part of our team, and I also joined a Gay volleyball league that will start next sunday. This is my first year to join the VGVA (Vancouver Gay Vball Assoc.) and it was WONDERFUL. I attended their evaluations last week so they can put me into a category that will suit my skills and I made it to the Highest Category :P
I also met new gay friends this long weekend and everything is going smoothly....
Right now I'm still chatting with Ben and it's already 2:34 am.... I have work later on so I think I should say goodnight to him already haha
I wanna move out but I cant, coz my sense of responsibility is holding me back, that IM HERE IN CANADA TO HELP MY FAMILY!
So as much as I want to complaint about how I feel... I CANT because it will break my mom's heart... so I just have to RANT ABOUT IT here in this blog just to release my tensions.
I just got home from dinner with Ben, too bad our good friend Deanna (whom I just also met the day I met Ben) didnt make it coz' she's with her friends. But its ok coz' shes just 3 stores away from the place where we ate LOL. We went to a jap restaurant in Burnaby and when we got there Ben asked me if he can borrow my iPhone, of course he can so I handed my iPhone and I was weirded by what he was doing. He was wrote something in my notes then he handed the phone back to me and gave me a present. It was a Naruto plush toy and its soooo cute, and the note says like this:
"From Ben and Deanna
Here you go karl. This is a little something from Ben and Deanna. We hope you like it! you are a crazy vball player.. Just keep doing what you do! and you can talk to both of us when you need to find someone to talk to! Naruto all the way? hahaha. btw this thing is just a random gift lol...
have a nice day =)"
It means a lot to me... I'm glad I met these two wonderful people :P
Okay! Going back to what I was telling about my life in the Philippines, It was awesome and I surely miss the not so old times. My first few months here in Canada were devastating, I was homesick and so depressed about what happened to me and my boyfriend. A few months have passed and I moved on, I met new friends through volleyball and found a stable job. The first friends that I met here were Denny, Anh, and Cyrus and we still play together until now. Sometime in August of 2008 I met a Filipino guy through an online gay social website, his name is Neil. The first time I saw him it was like love at first sight haha coz' hes so cute and simple, but hes verry young. After a couple of days of talking to him, I figured out that he dont really like me to be his date so we just became friends, but I still liked him so being friends with Neil is cool to coz' I'll get a chance to see him often.
A few months have passed and we became bestfriends and we met two more gay friends- Jude and Arvin. At work, I found another friend and his name is Marco- a 24 year old straight Filipino guy who loves basketball, sushi and karaoke. He didnt know that I am gay until I felt guilty coz I was not being true to him, so I told him about him and he's cool with that. In fact we became closer to each other after I told him about it, so close that I started to like him (who wouldnt fall for a guy like him, he picks me up to work, asked me out for dinner after work, taught me basketball, brought me to his girlfriend's parties, talked to me in MSN for hours and called me in my Phone when his GF is already sleeping). I started to doubt his sexuality because of how he treated me and one day, I told him that I love him but I am not expecting anything about it, that I just wanna be true to myself. Two weeks after I told him about it, we were having our regular dinner after work in a vietnamese restaurant when he bacame so silent and wont eat his food. I asked him why he's like that and he told me that he's treating me like that coz' "HE LIKE ME".
I was shocked about what I heard from him, I was so happy that I would cry. After dinner we went to the recreation center just to hangout coz' it was still early for us to pick his girlfriend from work. In the car we were holding hands until we reached the rec. center. There he told me something I wouldn't forget in my entire life:
"Karl, I shouldve met you before her, you should've moved here in Canada before we became lovers"
From that day on, we became "like" boyfriends coz we had no commitment. We were secretly going out and He would lie to his girlfriend everytime she asked him where did he go. It was wonderful until I felt like a mistress. The feeling was so painful and I couldnt bear it anymore, I had to let him go. It was one of the hardest decision that I made in my life, But I am glad I did it!
Because of what happened, I decided to go back to the Philippines with my Mom to unwind. I went back on June 2009 and it was a 3 week vacation. I've never been so happy again, I spent all my days with my friends and I also had the chance to be with my ex-boyfriend who still loved me and was excited to be with me again. But I knew that I shouldn't gave him any hopes so even if it broke my heart, when I left the Philippines, I told him to forget me coz' he deserves to be happy.
So I went back here in Canada with lots of happy memories, and a sad one. The good thing was, my vacation helped me to forget everything about Marco. I kept myself busy playing volleyball and spent more time with the person that I cared the most that time, Neil. Jude was very busy about his work so most of the time, it was just me Arvin and Neil who hang out together. It was last month, August, when Arvin introduced me and Neil to his friends and it was a big group. That time I felt like I'm home, that I would never be sad again here in Canada coz I now have a lot of friends. But I felt something weird at the same time.
I was falling in love with Neil again, I knew it was wrong and its not the right time coz he just broke up with his boyfriend that time. But it hurts me to see him sad that I would like to take care of him myself so I told him that I still love him but as expected, he didnt want me to love him. He felt sorry that we talked about staying away from each other at the moment but I don't want him to suffer because of what I did, so I was the one who decided to be away until my feelings for him is completely gone because seeing him everyday wont help me and since he's always with our friends, that means I was basically staying away from them.
It was another hard decision for me and I know that I was wrong. But what can I do? It's not my fault to love him either??
Anyway so that's what happened last month. I kept myself busy playing volleyball as usual and that's how I met BEN and DEANNA. It was perfect timing to have them when it's like this. So far everything is going well, September is a GOOD MONTH for me.. so far..... I joined 3 volleyball leagues this fall, One will start next monday and I will be playing with my friends who live downtown, the other one will start next thursday and I'll be playing with the team that I just made and Ben is part of our team, and I also joined a Gay volleyball league that will start next sunday. This is my first year to join the VGVA (Vancouver Gay Vball Assoc.) and it was WONDERFUL. I attended their evaluations last week so they can put me into a category that will suit my skills and I made it to the Highest Category :P
I also met new gay friends this long weekend and everything is going smoothly....
Right now I'm still chatting with Ben and it's already 2:34 am.... I have work later on so I think I should say goodnight to him already haha
Monday, September 7, 2009
September 7, 2009
Today I decided to start a blog about my life here in Canada because I can't take the pressure building up inside me coming from my sense of responsibility as a brother to my siblings and as the eldest son to my parents. This outlet should at least ease the weight of my burden, hopefully.
My name is Karl. I will be 23 years old this coming November and it will be my second birthday here in Canada. I came here from the Philippines on January 23, 2008 with my father and three younger siblings. My mom has been here in Canada since 2002 and she got all of us here through the Live-in Caregiver Program of the Government of Canada. We all had a permanent resident status when we landed here as immigrants.
I am a Registered Nurse in the Philippines but at the moment, I am working as a call center representative for a bathtub company because my RN application here is still in process. At the moment, we are just renting a two-bedroom apartment because our combined income is not enough to pay for a house mortgage so basically, we are all waiting for me to become a Nurse so we can have a better way of living. And that is one reason why I am ranting about it because It is kind of unfair for me as it compromises my independence, like I just came here in Canada for them.
I know it sounds selfish but let me show you the big picture. Back in the Philippines when I had my Bachelor's, I was having a normal life. I had all my friends whom I consider as my family, job opportunities as a Nurse, and the best part is, I had a loving boyfriend. Yes, I am not straight and my parents are aware of it. I never had a boring day back there. If theres nothing to do, my friends were just one text away and we'll have something that will make the day complete like Volleyball (all of us are competitive players and our group has more than 20 "guys"), LAN computer games, Booz, Dinner, Karaoke, Road Trip, Coffee, Slumber nights, etc. or I can just cuddle with my boyfriend.
I already planned for my future after University. I had no plans of leaving the Philippines to be a Nurse abroad because I don't really care about riches. I'm sure that I wont be having kids or my own straight family anyway so I'm not worried about not having a high standard way of living. My planned future was just to have a stable job and be with the right person in our own house and have my own car, And we'll live happily ever after with my friends. And that is not a dream if you're a professional, educated gay in a third-world country- it is doable!
But things changed when we got a phone call from my mom saying that we will be moving to Canada with her. My family was happy and excited, but me. It was like a nightmare for me. I cried all day after I heard the big news. I didn't know what to do, I didn't wanna leave the Philippines. I had a choice to stay but I didn't do it because when I tried to talk to my mom and dad about it, they were already upset to hear me saying that I am happy in the Philippines. So my planned future changed, I left my friends and everyone were sad and crying. Specially my boyfriend, because the day of my flight was supposed to be our "1st year Anniversary". It was heart breaking.
Anyway, I will tell you more later on because I need to go now. My friend Ben (I just met him 3 weeks ago, he's chinese and cute but unfortunately he's straight lol.. were now good friends :D )asked me out for dinner with his friends so I'll ttyl!!!!
My name is Karl. I will be 23 years old this coming November and it will be my second birthday here in Canada. I came here from the Philippines on January 23, 2008 with my father and three younger siblings. My mom has been here in Canada since 2002 and she got all of us here through the Live-in Caregiver Program of the Government of Canada. We all had a permanent resident status when we landed here as immigrants.
I am a Registered Nurse in the Philippines but at the moment, I am working as a call center representative for a bathtub company because my RN application here is still in process. At the moment, we are just renting a two-bedroom apartment because our combined income is not enough to pay for a house mortgage so basically, we are all waiting for me to become a Nurse so we can have a better way of living. And that is one reason why I am ranting about it because It is kind of unfair for me as it compromises my independence, like I just came here in Canada for them.
I know it sounds selfish but let me show you the big picture. Back in the Philippines when I had my Bachelor's, I was having a normal life. I had all my friends whom I consider as my family, job opportunities as a Nurse, and the best part is, I had a loving boyfriend. Yes, I am not straight and my parents are aware of it. I never had a boring day back there. If theres nothing to do, my friends were just one text away and we'll have something that will make the day complete like Volleyball (all of us are competitive players and our group has more than 20 "guys"), LAN computer games, Booz, Dinner, Karaoke, Road Trip, Coffee, Slumber nights, etc. or I can just cuddle with my boyfriend.
I already planned for my future after University. I had no plans of leaving the Philippines to be a Nurse abroad because I don't really care about riches. I'm sure that I wont be having kids or my own straight family anyway so I'm not worried about not having a high standard way of living. My planned future was just to have a stable job and be with the right person in our own house and have my own car, And we'll live happily ever after with my friends. And that is not a dream if you're a professional, educated gay in a third-world country- it is doable!
But things changed when we got a phone call from my mom saying that we will be moving to Canada with her. My family was happy and excited, but me. It was like a nightmare for me. I cried all day after I heard the big news. I didn't know what to do, I didn't wanna leave the Philippines. I had a choice to stay but I didn't do it because when I tried to talk to my mom and dad about it, they were already upset to hear me saying that I am happy in the Philippines. So my planned future changed, I left my friends and everyone were sad and crying. Specially my boyfriend, because the day of my flight was supposed to be our "1st year Anniversary". It was heart breaking.
Anyway, I will tell you more later on because I need to go now. My friend Ben (I just met him 3 weeks ago, he's chinese and cute but unfortunately he's straight lol.. were now good friends :D )asked me out for dinner with his friends so I'll ttyl!!!!
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